As he shut the door put sunglasses and looked left and right with nervousness. However, for a moment, almost relaxed. It was impossible that any of his acquaintances were walking at that time for that neighborhood. He walked very fast to turn the corner and climbed into the car. In front of the mirror, touched up bangs and lipstick. Conducted fifteen minutes without traffic streets Sunday nap. Pressed the pedal with care: still shaking legs and could not afford to lose control. Since the limit was enough.
knew it was too late to turn back, to say nothing happened here, to repent and feel guilty. He also knew, as a condemned man knows that his absence would not go unpunished. I knew that the explosion of the atomic bomb, the fall of the weak house of cards was just a matter of time. I was going to be a failure, a mistake, a forgotten umbrella, a clear text message, an hour late.
was not difficult to find a parking spot, and went to the supermarket on foot at full speed, in contrast to the pace seemed to take the rest of the people. Tuna eggs milk unsalted crackers. I had the list. It used to be very organized to make it in the order in which items were arranged on the shelves. I did not know improvise purchase and grab things without rhyme or reason. Canned corn potatoes chicken burgers for the guys legs. I knew the unspoken agreement of silence was important, but not worried so much that they discover the lie, nor the consequences that might bring. Not even despair the idea of \u200b\u200bdivorce, scandal family, judging from his mother, the children crying in the stairwell. The most terrible, most unforgivable of all, was what we could not change, although no one knew. The idea itself was what is broken, it would not fix.
while standing in line for the box, paraded through his mind characters who detested. Michael Corleone, Daniel Plainview, Scarlett O'Hara, Dr. House himself. What most bothered them was that despite the damage they did, despite their delusions, their miseries, their treachery, they were not really bad people. They were just people, acting coolly and pragmatically different situations. I was scared just thinking I could take something from them. Discussed between good and evil, he knew, like all the difference. He wondered if he could go down, lying, falling increasingly under for something that basically was not worth it, or whether to choose the tranquility and transparency of what he knew, what he did well.
course. How peaceful, how easy it used to be around when nothing happened. But now, how to live again without feeling the chest on the verge of bursting, tears and laughter always ready to jump, the legs were shaking just close the door. The pleasure and fun trivia quite often appear as dispensable, in which the cost-benefit is always negative. Maybe so, is true. It was obvious that so much blame does not lie and brought him nothing more than a little sex and laughter with someone who really did not want much. The pleasure is underestimated, he thought. It was difficult, but necessary, accept, accept that it was so good and embrace his Michael Corleone, can lie without blinking, if only for a good time to change.
paid by credit card and came out in the heat of the siesta.
